The hardest few days of my life

[Flood]

This past Monday(April 7) my only brother, Cale, killed himself. Though it is hard for me to say, it is probably better for him this way. None of you knew, but he was bi-polar, had ADHD, anxiety problems, and and battled depression for most of his 16 years. He couldn't even hope for a mediocre day unless he took several mood altering drugs. He told no-one, left no note, and seemed normal all weekend and Monday during the day; as far as we know, this was a spontanious act. I can't eat, sleep, or take any comfort knowing that he is finally at peace. I keep telling myself that I'm done crying, but I am only kidding myself. I am not a religious person, but at times like these I wish I was. The funeral is this friday.

Funny that this is what it takes to bring the family together, everthing seems so petty. It has truly been the worst days of my life, and I fear that things aren't going to be right again for a long time.
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[LdyDrgn]

Oh, Flood. I am SO sorry!! My heart goes out to you. When I was little, my (then) best friend's brother killed himself. He was like my older brother, too. His name was Dale [img]modules/Forum/images/smiles/icon_frown.gif[/img]. It will be hard for a while, but you will eventually heal. Think about the good times and remember him fondly. He will always be with you.

**HUG**

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[jpaulson]

Don't know what to say, Flood, other than offering my deepest sympathies. I am religious, and I will pray for you and your family. For what it is worth, you have tons of people here on this site that will stand by you in whatever capacity you may need.

Be strong, Flood---God Bless,
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[Stormyva]

I am so sorry!
Our thoughts are with you and your family.
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[BWSmith]

There are no words. Just know that we are behind you and you have our support and sympathy. Try to keep your chin up.
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[SnakePool]

I feel for you and your family. It is hard today when a family member passes on, but tommorrow will be better.
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[SteveP]

A childhood friend of mine took her own life about a year and a half ago, and though we weren't related it still affected me very significantly...we were born one day apart. You're right, so much of our day to day struggles are so petty. At the very least a loss of this sort often prompts us to regain or re-adjust our perspective of life and "the big picture", and how precious our friends and family truly are!

My deepest sympathies to you and your family Flood.
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[morti]

My thoughts and sympathy are with you and your family.

Remember, It is ok to cry.

-Morti.
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[Blackwidow_woman]

[img]modules/Forum/images/smiles/icon_cry.gif[/img] Geez Flood, im soooooo sorry to here about that,, our family sends our deepest heart felt sympathy..[img]modules/Forum/images/smiles/icon_cry.gif[/img] I dont know what else to say.. [img]modules/Forum/images/smiles/icon_cry.gif[/img]

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[GizmO]

I really don't know what to say, except I am sorry and send my sympathy to you and your family. It will get easier in time. I know that is hard to belive and I didn't believe it when people told me that but, eventually it does get a lil easier. Remember all the good times.
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